Original Character Can Be Family, Too… Right??

Would it be too much to consider an original character a “relative”? I don’t really have much of a relationship with other family outside of immediate relatives, like my mom and aunt (who lives in the Bronx) and older brother (who I don’t have much of a relationship with anyway).

Cassandra, a character I have planned for a story I wrote for NaNoWriMo 2012 (and won with) is that eclectic person in my head, saying the darnedest things. She speaks from her heart, no filter, and while her honesty is brutal, it’s refreshing. And she does it all while wearing Alexander McQueen, drinking scotch, and with her Australian dialect.

Cassandra stands straight, looking you in the eyes as she talks. Very attentive as she listens (and yes, she DOES listen). Takes shit from no one. She’s also very random; she comes up with the strangest ideas, or they sound strange upon first hearing them and sound awesome after much thought. She’s intellectual, and has numerous notebooks filled with theories, opinions, written scenes of smutty erotica and articulate violence, detailed doodles, and randomness spilling into the margins.

I once asked her why she hadn’t published any content from said notebooks.

“Why do I need to? What does that prove? I’m sure I’m not the only one who’s thought/said those things. Sure as fuck won’t be the last. But it doesn’t hurt to write it down; might forget them later.”

Which is very insightful, because it takes a brave soul to even write down their inner thoughts, even controversial ones. I struggle while writing my thoughts, because my inner editor is a beast, and my conscience fights to be proper. Not Cassandra. She takes life by the horns.

She’s the person I would love to be, but am not. Not completely. Which may be a good thing, because she lives HARD, and I’m not really about that life LOL. Yet her principles are what I’m working towards as time goes on…

Soooooooooo….

I just saw a message someone published in a Google+ community I’m in, and it’s spreading the word about a magazine this new member was creating with a friend, and their crowdsourcing plan to turn their newsletter into an independent magazine with physical copies. Now I’m reading the post and thinking, “Oh, how cool! This would be a wonderful opportunity to not only support independent media, but possibly contribute in my own way!”

So I scroll down to find three photos, two of them women and one being the logo for the magazine. “Oh, how cool! A magazine about art and lifestyle and stuff!” I also saw these women were white, which is not really what I have a problem with.

In fact, I have no problem with it, but I’m not sure I could relate to them or their potential demographic if the only thing we can relate to is being creative women. Yes, there are several outlets to connect to other creative Black women, but it’d be wonderful if there were numerous, visible magazines from Black women aside from what we see on the newsstands.

It also gave me the idea to possibly start a newsletter/online quarter- or bi-annual magazine of my own, yet I already utilize various outlets with my own blogging brand. Sounds weird to call it a brand, but it sort of is one spread across platforms.

I’ve got Tumblr, Twitter, YouTube (though I no longer use it for vlogs), Ello, LiveJournal (which I rarely use), here on WP, and now on Pinterest. There may be others I’ve forgotten and haven’t mentioned, but I’ll probably remember them once I’m done typing this out.

But now that I think about it, why am I becoming so wasteful with social media? What am I trying to protect? I mean, it’s not like I have a domain name (no, really, I don’t have a domain name) nor do I have anything to prove of myself other than I have a lot to say and do that through writing.

And it’s a bunch of senseless whining, anyway…

However, it’s a comfort to know I’ve got something to call my own. Not gonna lie, it felt good when I started my Pinterest account and found I could use ‘dederants’ as my URL. To think someone else hadn’t thought to use it.

I’m sure someone on another platform is using the username, but I hold possession of it on several platforms. Yet I think the main reason I like the exclusivity of it being mine is because it’s relevant, it stays true to what I’m about. My name is Deannah, DeDe for short. Usually introduce myself to new people with it because people see my name and mispronounce it. And I know I needn’t hold a grudge over it, but it’s a bit annoying to constantly have to correct someone.

Also, I rant. I rant to myself. I rant to my friends. My tweet can be ranty, as well as my Tumblr and this WP. Sometimes, an original character’s dialogue can get ranty if I’m in that frame of mind at that moment. I’ve got  lot on my mind, and immediate folks around me pretend not to hear me when they don’t want to, so I waste my breath on social media or keep my thoughts to myself and/or my trusty notebook, which I know no one will read anyway LOL.

Come to think of it, I don’t need a magazine. I just need to make more of an effort to write my thoughts down. I find myself RT’ing or reblogging someone else’s thoughts, for the person saying them does so more articulately than I can. And when I do it — be articulate with my words, I mean — it’s on explicitly rare condition. I have to take time to sit with myself and think, without distraction(s) getting in the way. That can be annoying when I hear something happening on one of my favorite podcasts and my attention span to my thoughts wanes.

Yes, I do have moments of clarity, and I write them down here and there. But when i write something and my thoughts are garbled, I worry someone will misunderstand or be concerned with sentence structure and what I’m trying to say, the latter mores than the former. But the moments of clarity are ones I cherish, where I can settle and be comfy in my thoughts.

What the hell kind of tangent did I just go on? One minute, I was inspired to start a newsletter/magazine, the next I’m going on about ownership of my URL and my thoughts.

And did I really mention that my URL was a brand? Good lord, I am WAY ahead of myself.

But maybe I need to be. Maybe I need to think about what I could be doing, what the future can bring. Yet I’m no fortune teller, so fuck if I know. All I can do is keep thinking, keep myself updated on current events and the news, keep writing, keep my head in the clouds (where it usually is much of the time, anyway!).

In the meantime, I’d like to thank those of you who’ve followed me here — and possibly on Twitter — and putting up with these messy posts I couldn’t be bothered to actually revise/proofread before clicking “Publish”. Your follows, likes, and comments are much appreciated, and bring about lively, much-needed discussions.

Love y’all,
Deannah AKA DeDeRants :-)

It’s Been A While…

… since I last saw you…

Yes, it’s been a LONG while since my last perusing of WP. Or last post, whichever came first.

So much has happened between then and now (not so much to me, but in general).

Also, I’ve recently realized I haven’t been posting Photo Fridays like I planned, so apologies. Maybe I can make a post with a series of photos I took on Fridays or something…

My participation of NaNoWriMo has been sparse, to say the least. I’ve written, but I’m just under 3,000 words at the halfway point of NaNo. Of course it isn’t a lot, but it’s something. The fact I’ve written anything at all is an achievement.

And I’ve chosen not to make a big deal about it. I’ll write when the words come. That’s how it works, right?

Anyways, if anyone following me is on Ello, feel free to follow me there, as well.

In the meantime, if anything to write comes to mind, I’ll gladly put it here. Hope everyone is doing well, and enjoying the weekend!

So I’ve been away from WordPress for a bit. Mainly because much of that time’s been spent on Twitter (and Tumblr, as well as other places, some of the time).

I’m anticipating — and dreading — the upcoming NaNoWriMo 2014. I already have a list of plots, but with everything going on in the world recently, I’ve been inspired to do something new.

Now I either need to plan the story/novel through summarization or, once midnight on November 1st comes around, just start writing. I’m afraid, however, that if I plan out the story ahead of time, I’ll get bored quickly and either abandon the idea altogether or begin a new story.

I don’t have much of a work ethic, being I don’t write regularly. Yet earlier, I had a spurt of creativity while in a GroupMe chat with friends, writing a mini-smut fic involving actors my group and I are familiar with. I won’t say who they are…

But yes, chances are I should at least try out the summarization of the story. Wouldn’t hurt to try a different method other than pantsing it throughout and getting bored five minutes into it…

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20 Awesome Tweets About The Great White Riot

Originally posted on Black Millennial Musings:

I was going to write a lengthly blog post about the upheaval and criminality surrounding this weekend’s Pumpkin Fest in Keene, N.H. But naw.

Long story short, a large bunch of shitfaced white college kids destroyed an entire town for the hell of it.

A Rush

On the heels of Ferguson, St. Louis when mega media was under intense scrutiny after deliberate misreporting, Twitter was (once again) the go-to place to highlight jarring racial disparities. With the hashtag #pumpkinfest, Black Twitterati shared discourse about how media portrays white rioters as “out-of-control” and “rowdy” while Black protestors in Ferguson were demonized as “looters” and “thugs.”

Thugs vs. Rowdy

In Keene, police dressed in riot gear sprayed pepper spray and tear gas, but that was only after hours of criminal behavior. White rioters threw bottles, rocks, and other weapons at police. They also set fires, and caused hundreds of thousands of dollars in…

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Oh, What A Difference A Twenty-Five-Hour Day Makes

I’m sure many people would extend their slumber for an extra sixty minutes (I sure as hell would).

But if an extra hour a day meantime time spent with friends during convention weekends, I’d make sure to take as much advantage of it as I could.

The thing is, the only time I see these awesome people is through social media much of the year. We’re all spread out along the East coast, and the closest friend is in Virginia, a neighbor to the north of NC.

But when we finally do get together, even for only four days, I do my best at enjoying the time spent with them. Because time flies when you’re having fun…